It’s Wednesday, and let me tell you, it’s been a hell of a week. And a slightly shit week, at that.
One of the things that I struggle most with is how easily other people can affect me. One strange smile here, one cranky look there, can completely upheave my day. It’s infuriating. One bad impression, weird encounter, or awful phone call can set me in some of the foulest moods I’ve been in. The worst part?
I have no idea how to get out of them.
I find it all consuming. How could they do this? What were they thinking? Did they mean what they say?
Even if I manage to get to a point where I avoid thinking about it, and try to push it aside, my mood remains. It’s like trying to push the trash deeper and deeper into the bin, when really you need to empty it.
In any case, it’s incredibly annoying. I wish I had more control over my mood and my emotions, and I wish people had less control over me.
As you get older, you think that would be the case, but I guess it’s not.
I suppose it’s something else to add to my list of improvements.
J
xx
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